BUSTER SLY

those who do not know me, this a first for me. Happily single for the past 20 plus years, have I been. This illness (lonely) must be purged. 

It all started when an acquaintance asked me out for a date of sorts with the intent of me staying overnight to cuddle. My response was honest and direct. I told him I could not remember a time when I cuddled.

Shortly there after I found myself surfing through my contacts on my cell phone. The illness (lonely) subsided and I was myself once more. Not without suffering a few lingering scars of desire for companionship. I almost deleted the word companionship thinking at first it was a type error. I jumped from cuddling to companionship. 

I tell myself "this too shall pass". I do not have to time nor the energy to invest in cuddling. If I say it enough, I can convince myself of anything.

On one side I write often about "It takes a village", By Ms Clinton. Yet I do my best to remain an Island, in and of itself. Reminding myself, I already have far too many people that I answer to. 

I will keep an open mind and allow the universe to unfold as it should. While getting out of my one way. Feelings are just that. Until I take action, it remains as such. But by me not taking any action. Does not cause and effect still apply.

I come full circle desire,fear and practicality. No stranger bedfellow I could ever make.

A solution, at this moment I have not. Open to the possibilities, will I work on.

Grateful to be in a place where I would consider the possibility I am.

Sylvester L Neal
Buster Sly