The freedom I found within.

My trip to San Francisco has been extended. It has been made quite clear to me by my two tech friends. that i need a bit more help before they let me run free. 

This has afforded me with the opportunity to experience "Dory Alley" this Sunday. It will be a first for me.

The new pictures posted on this site along with where taken by my friend and photographer extraordinaire, Andrew Adam Caldwell. It was one of the most difficult shoots for me to date. It was for an up and coming project, where I agreed to be in a submissive, passive role. I found it difficult to give Andrew the look and feel that he was shooting for and expected from me. It took a bit of patience on his part for me to settle into the role by drawing from a time in my life. Where I was kept in a constant state of alert. Aware, even back then, as young as I had been. Who was the person holding all the power and who was on the receiving end of the carrot/stick. To Andrew's credit, I trusted him enough to let myself visit that a time that I had forgotten for such a long time. When I internalize traumatic experiences that have occurred at various points in my life it only leads to more suffering. It has been and continues to be a work in progress. Allowing myself to be vulnerable around my family and close friends is a goal I continue to struggle with. Fear is an emotion I know all to well. I strive to be motivated from a place based on love, compassion, tolerance, acceptance, faith.

Thank you, Mira my lesbian therapist in Austin Texas (20 plus years ago). I learned how not to be victimized and break free of the victim mentality, I had been made to believe as the gospel truth. How freeing it was when I understood, the only thing I need to control in my life is how I respond to the people, places and things that are presented before me. I do not have to own other peoples baggage. I have enough of my own to carry and I like traveling light.